unlock it, but then what?

Monday Morning: Real Time: LA: October 12th

we had an incredibly surprising church gathering last night.

Surprising in the emotions that came up.
Surprising in the fear that arose.
Surprising in that I never expected to be asked for a secret.
And surprising that I'm not sure I'll stop even though I acknowledge the negativity of it.
But the point is I'm trying.

I suppose that's the purpose of what came out last night. That I acknowledge what i patterns I have created for myself and the weight that came off when i wrote it down, and had it read aloud. We're all broken, I fully embrace that. The best thing that happened was that we shared our brokenness which is a step in the right direction to create a closer family within the church. For so many churches/religions, pretending we don't see is essential in keeping up the facade that everything is perfect. The "don't ask, don't tell" philosophy and the old adage my pastor brought up... "I'll pray for you", are instrumental in keeping the congregation at arm's length from each other and harboring the dark environment that everyone lives in during their day to day existence.

It was dark. It was emotional and shocking. But it was good.

Do I think people will wake up today and stop what they have been secretly participating in? No. That's not what the purpose was. Just waking us all up to the darkness that we keep inside of ourselves and never share with anyone in our lives was helpful i think. I pray that we continue unearthing the secrets we all keep, however painful it may be.

This weekend proved to be much more insightful, heartwarming and awakening than I could have imagined Friday morning.

And I met a new friend:)